Posted by: Mermaid | May 14, 2009

نظرة خارج السيارة

أهدئ من سرعة سيارتي قبل أن أوقفها تماماً في إشارة القصر العيني والتي تؤدي إلى ذلك الكوبري الصغير الذي أعبره لأجدني في المنيل. أنظر إلى جواري فأجد سيارة أجرة يبدو من ألوانها أنها ليست من القاهرة. أنظر داخلها فأرى إمرأة في الكنبة الخلفية تبدو في منتصف الثلاثينات، بشرة قمحية مصرية، بسيطة في مظهرها، تلف طرحة زيتونية حول رأسها. إنتبهت إلى جلستها الغريبة؛ تجلس معطية ظهرها تماماً لمن يجلس بجوارها مواجهة النافذة بوجهها وهي تبكي. تبكي؟! إتسعت عيناي وأنا أدقق النظر. أتبكي حقاً؟! لم تكن ملامحها منقبضة بطريقة ملفتة للنظر، كانت شبه هادئة ولكن تجري مع دموعها الصامتة نظرة قهر وحزن عميقين. لماذا فضلت أن تنظر للخارج بدلاً من أن تداري دموعها داخل السيارة مع من تعرفهم؟ أيكون الأغراب أحن من المقربين أحياناً؟ كم نقسى على من نحب!

تبدأ السيارات في التحرك وتسبقني سيارة الأجرة بأمتار قليلة. أنظر للشخص الجالس بجوارها. ظهره كتمثال بارد لايشعر بلوعة من بجواره. أتمنى لو أترك سيارتي وأجري وراء تلك السيارة… أجري وأجري حتى تتوقف فأقترب منها، أمسح دموع ضعفها، أضمها وأقول لها: “قلبي معِك!



  1. Sad but true… sometimes close ones are pretty harsh on their close ones… and sometimes strangers are indeed a source of relief… part of it becasue they do not really know you, so you might not feel ashamed to reveal the weak part of yourself with them… and pat of it becasue the human nature by default have this sense of compassion…

    When I last went to 3omra a few years ago, I was entering the Mosque of Madina with my mother when one of the security women at one of the gates told Mama “Ed3eely ya 7agga, da3wet el ghareeb mostagaba…”… I can never forget her words…….

    Lovely Post ya Mayo… it’s been some time when I was that touched by something I read! :)

  2. i love this post… i relate!

  3. Yes, ya Rou. In fact, the scene was very rich and touching that I shamfully failed to relate it properly in my piece!

    I liked your interpretation why sometimes strangers are more compassionate than close ones. Very true!

    Thanks ya Rou… glad I can still write some touching stories :)

  4. Thanks, Insomniac! Glad you liked and could relate to it… :)

  5. …. It’s very sad that one will prefer to turn to the world instead of their own folks.

    The outer world is usually a cold place, you are an exception dear, but I can think of a million other car that threw a careless glance at that woman and carried on in their way as if nothing happened.
    And it makes me think, if this is what one is running to, what possibly is it that one is running from! And it makes me wonder how far can human beings reach in being cold, distant, and cruel hearted..

  6. Ya Nahlool… enty ezay deep keda? :D

    “if this is what one is running to, what possibly is it that one is running from!”…. I am.. mezmerized by this! (Very Barghooty style – seems he’s getting onto you ;) )

  7. “Mezmerized”!! Ya kharashi!! :D – thanks ya Doodz.
    Yeah the Barghooty effect is immidiate men al wade7 .. ana 7atta ba2et ba7eb el baragheet awy :D
    Thank you dear for the touching post and for giving us something to think about!
    Bisoux :)

  8. loooool…. 7aram 3aleiky… I am laughing non-stop @ “ba7eb el baragheet” :D :D :D

    Thank “you”, dear … your thoughts were even deeper than the piece itself :)

  9. yaaaaaaaaay…i like what u see beyond the situations (mo7alela nag7a) sometimes 3adam e7sas the close people beky in ur hard times byeb2a as3ab 3leky mn e7sasek bel7ozn aslan.

  10. Thank you, thank you :D

    It is very true that insensitivity of close ones is sometimes crueler than the distress itself!

  11. Yaaaa this is so trueeee.
    how come sometimes we find more comfort sharing our tears with people we dont know and we hide them for people around us.

    how can we reach a point where sharing such very private expression of sorrow and pain becomes a burden so we prefer sharing it with whoever will notice

    thanks Doodzyy for this eye opening observation

  12. It is sad ya Willy, isn’t it? (Sigh)

    Thanks for passing by, dear :)

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