Having your blood pressure dropping to 80/50 twice in less than 10 days is not a sign of the best health on earth! Low blood pressure fellows would understand how we feel when it goes that low; irritating dizziness, utter weakness and pain in every inch of our bodies. I start feeling the symptoms crawling over me yet I do not seek help from people around but when I reach the stage of not being able to lift a finger! Why? I do not know! None knows my secrecy about such serious physical conditions except two close friends. Well, I think it is part of how I see myself as a strong woman; emotionally and physically. I stretch my limits to the maximum. Two days ago, I was literally thrown on the ground but I didn’t call out for help. I just kept telling myself: “you’ll be fine.” And when I got better, I asked my youngest sister to fix me something to eat. That was out of “dala3” (a desire to be pampered) not weakness or actual need.
Up till now, I never pushed myself too hard – just very hard, I never went too far, and my good self never failed me. I hope I’ll always be wise enough to know the limits and recognize them even if they’re abnormally stretched.
Needing people and finding them answering our calls is gratifying. But being able to help ourselves and satisfy their needs is such a comforting, assuring feeling.