I always had a clear vision; I had a clear opinion about almost everything in my life. I cannot remember a time in my life where everything was blurry as it is now. I have been just tip-toeing on my e-mails and FB. Sometimes spending a whole day without checking them which is very not me. Wanting to help out the country in every direction and ending up by doing nothing at all. Being exposed to the rottenness of the regime is a little bit less than traumatic. And the freedom that we were deprived of for all our lives, when we’ve gained it at last, we become offensive, sarcastic and narrow-minded to the utmost extent. I’ve read an article a few months ago by an Egyptian writer that Egyptians are not good at accepting “the other”. Now, I can see this clear as the sun!
Most of the above was written in the last few hours of a two-week depressed state! Besides what I mentioned above about FB and e-mails, I did not want to talk to anyone. I see people’s names on my mobile phone and I close my eyes and say: “I don’t wanna talk!”. I leave it ring for a while and don’t call back. I only picked up on very, very few people. Same case with BBMs. My energy level was -50. I was pissed off, too, from many people. And from myself as well. And to top it all, I started a strict diet. Not having sweets (chocolates, cakes and all the goodies) made me in an edgy mood all the time. What has changed? I am not sure! I just think it’s time to get a grip. I’ll still take it slow with FB because it turned out to be a source of negative energy for me. I’ll try to pick 2-3 channels through which I can help the country and focus on them. Running in all directions won’t get me anywhere. As Ibraheem once said, less chairs, more quality time on each.
Mayada, FOCUS and know your destination as you always did. Do not mind the bumps on the road; they’d wake you up when you doze off on the driving wheel. And most importantly, do not forget to enjoy the ride :)