Two days ago, I was planning to go have lunch out and then go to a movie alone. A couple of friends knew about this by coincidence and were greatly amazed. I understand where they come from. It is not quite “common” in our culture to find people doing things on their own. But the thing is, I quite enjoy my own company :) Not that people’s is irritating or anything. On the contrary, some people’s company makes all the difference. But I have to admit I hate feeling lonely. And I never have this feeling when I am alone. Yes, never! Only with some people this feeling comes to curl and shrink my heart into a sad organ. Besides trying to avoid this feeling of loneliness, I usually charge my battery from the time I spend on my own. When I spend a lot of time with people, I feel I lost all my energy. With the exception of very few friends who are actually a source of energy for me (even when they’re feeling down! And whose company I prefer to mine), and a few who fluctuate between energy-giver and energy-drainer positions, everyone else’s company sucks every drop of energy I have.
I am glad I grew to not being irritated and actually like my own company.
Signature: A Narcissist! :)