I open that box with anticipating hands. I am not sure how I’d feel when I see those shoes. After getting injured because I didn’t use running shoes in my relatively long run five months ago, I bought them to run with him. But I never got the chance to. Now, after going for physiotherapy for a couple of months, I am advised to walk. I open the box and I feel numbed. I put them on and start walking. I cannot run yet. Some subtle pain starts to creep into my left foot and into my heart. I pat myself and tell her: “you’re one strong girl! It’s okay to just walk now, even with pain. Soon, you’ll be able to run. Just keep going, Maya. Just keep going”.
Soon, I’ll be able to run inshAllah.